Funny how a word, or a combination of words, can redirect your compass, can change your azimuth so that you're on a heading you didn't choose, can turn your needle in a direction you haven't been in a long, very long time.
The other day I was at the keyboard, starting to lay down some thoughts on my next "Our Tribe" interview that I'm going to do with the Bootstrap farm. The word was in there, I just couldn't make it out yet, like a ghost in the room, unseen but giving off strong vibes. A football game was supplying some background noise, my daughter was playing on the floor, and she asked me "dad, did you play football when you were a kid?" I remembered that my brother had sent me a CD of photos when we were kids, photos he gathered up at my dad's house in Georgia after he passed away. I hadn't really looked at the pictures, just gave them the once over, but I remembered seeing a few shots of a young boy armored up in football gear, so I went and got the CD, loaded it in the computer, and called my daughter over to look at the photos.
Grainy old photos, 1960's photos, photos that ever so briefly can transport you back to your youth. We started scrolling down through the images, and that's when it hit me. I tried to duck the blow, but sometimes you just can't get out of the way.
Boots. There he was in my mind, extrapolated from Bootstrap and old photos and football, ingredients baking themselves into a cake you hadn't ordered. A red headed, freckle faced little imp, known to most as Bob Scott, but to me as "Boots". Or sometimes "Bailey Hog", but just mostly "Boots", my best friend. Who knows where the nicknames came from, time has covered the furrow of that memory, but not all the memories.
Funny memories, like the time he asked me if I wanted to come over to his house, cause he had something cool to play with. It was a week or two before Christmas, we were out of school for the holidays, and his mom, a school teacher, was at a conference and wouldn't be home till evening. Or so he thought. When I got to his house, I asked him where this cool toy was, and he gave his mischievous little laugh, a laugh all his own, like no other I've heard before or since. He pulled a knife out of his back pocket, went over to their Christmas tree, and pulled a big package out. He took the knife and deftly lifted the taped ends, a deftness born of experience, no doubt. Out from the wrapping came one of those electric football games, the kind that had little men on plastic bases that moved across a metal field by vibration. Satisfied with my acknowledgment of his skills, we got down to the hard business of make believe football.
Not even ten minutes into the fun, we heard key enter door-lock. Mom's home. Mom's home early and we've been caught in the open, the searchlight square on us as we cross the wire. Panic doesn't paint a clear enough portrait, as his mom was a stern taskmaster, a large woman with the iron fist(s). Had I known the lyrics, I'm sure I would have broke out in "gimme three steps towards the door, and you won't see me no more". Needless to say, our afternoon fun took a serious blow, just not quite as serious as the blows taken by Boot's backside. Once the welts had subsided, we laughed about that one for weeks.
Funny memories, but also sad memories, even the saddest of all. We moved from the neighborhood to a new house a few miles away when I was 12 years old. Like all kids, I made new friends and went on with living, and Boots made new friends too, but the rub was, he didn't get to go on with his living. Always the curious cat, Boots was investigating one of his older brother's guns when it accidentally went off. The news was like any of that type of news when delivered. You don't want to open the envelope, just mark it "address unknown", just sent it back. The kind of news that leaves no outward mark, but scars you all the same. News that you try to bury deep, then pack it down hard and firm, hoping you can keep it from resurfacing.
Gravity's about to perform it's magic. About to drop the tear on the keypad, but then I remember that grown men don't cry, especially in front of their six year old daughters, but the boy on the computer screen, the boy in the football uniform, the boy that's still a part of the man is weeping. Weeping for a friend that didn't get the opportunity to sit with his daughter and look at goofy old photos.
Funny how a word can steer you. Rest in peace, Bob, I love you and miss you, brother.
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